Poetry - The Escape Route

All these colourful souls around, Still the one is nowhere to be found, Closes his eyes to the vision of love, Snaps out into reality, alone on the ground Shattered with the fact of life, Where it's easier to befriend a knife, Somehow finds the strength to stand up, But somewhere along the line, it's easier to give up Ill treated, Misjudged, pushed away along the path, Walking straight into the line of fire, Prepared to face even the devil's wrath, In return for his love's desire But with the future so bleak, Even God himself afraid to speak, He's left with nothing, but broken hope, His desire moved out of his scope With a heavy heart, he begins to walk away, Unwilling to leave, Unable to stay, Left with no option but to disappear, A Goodbye is all that's left to say

Empty lanes across the horizon, Eating up slowly just like poison, No direction to move upon, The sail set down as the wind's gone Crawling under the fake moon light, Fooled by the masks of trickery and lie, Defenceless  in his own fight, He's become their favourite fall guy The pool of prevarication spread around, Empty lies is all that's found, Seeded deep within everyone's soul, Its taken over complete control Counting down days to his parole, He's clutched harder by the shackles within, Leaving behind the half burnt soul, He takes the path of the Actual Sin

Unable to understand these feelings inside, Not being able to completely hide, The wind of incertitude flowing around, None of the answers seem to be found Walking past the graveyard of thoughts, Trying to pick out lost words, In this moment of poetic drought, Looking up to the freedom of birds With no limits beyond the sky, Where everything's too good a lie, He opens his eyes to the future beyond, Working towards a new dawn Hopeful of joyful times ahead, An end to these gloomy days, Throughout the journey the innocent bled, As the fiends always found their way Uncertain of what the future beholds, Yet eager to work his way through, Like the sunflower, his vision unfolds, As the clouds of poetic drought bid adie u

Gazing outside my window pane, Gathering life from within the stars, To ease upon this dark pain, During these difficult night hours Really thought you were the one, But it was over before it begun, It's so hard to walk away, But I know, I cannot stay There's nothing ahead that I can see, Except the darkness that fills my eyes, Like waves never leave the sea, I fooled myself with similar lies Existence of love in our lives, Brings us together like beehives, But the day it's shattered into pieces, Anger & Grief is what it releases Complications always keep increasing, Unless we keep our head straight, Opportunities seem to be ceasing, And All we do is Blame Our Fate

Going through the phase of life, Where pain seized the moment, Less dangerous seemed the knife, To cut through the heart like a rodent The hurt, the agony, the anger together, Makes up for one lost soul, Crying, whining, shouting or whether, Just living the nights darker than coal You say it's just a phase, It'll fade out over time, But it's not that easy a maze, To finish as partners in crime Broken heart, broken trust, No hope for new beginning, Moving ahead, if one must, In search for life's new meaning With hope for it to fade away, To meet the smile on your face, But it never seems to find its way, The smile's lost all its grace!

Not sure what to begin with, Trying to hold firm to the thought, Wondering if it's really a myth, Or just a phrase translated out of distraught Missing the smile on his face, As he walks under the star lit sky, Accepting his loss with grace, Tears hidden behind his eye There's nothing he can call mine, As he sets upon his journey ahead, Accompanied by just a bottle of wine, As his heart's left hanging by a thread The changing faces of people around, The mask of love covering them all, Selfishness has their actions bound, Not affected by any other's fall Decided not to stand there & wait, And move ahead on his own, As in his mind he sets it straight, One's Born Alone, One Dies Alone!

Standing under the rain, Hidden tears under the flow, Closed eyes feeling the pain, Killing me inside very slow Broken mirrors, bleeding hand, Waves destroying castles of sand, Pierced heart, missing heartbeat, Totally destroyed by the cheat, Never deserved such a dirty soul, Would rather fly with a broken wing, Than walk along with this big hole, Pierced through by just a fling All doors behind us shut, Moving ahead with the cut, The path once closed will never open again, As I continue walking under the rain

Walking down the loveless path, Looking back at the broken walls, Of trust his heart once hath, While tears down his cheek falls Not new to what these emotions offer, Yet refutes to accept the sunken pain, Locked within his heart's coffer, Leaving behind a painful stain Moving ahead with heavy shoulders, This weight he can't offload, Looks around to find no holders, Carrying it ahead along the road The end seems to be too far, The path not yet fully explored, All that's left, a painful scar, Left behind by the love sword The endless journey far away, From the point where he first bled, The walk within the shades of gray, The love scar has him living dead

Sitting down with a thoughtless mind, Aimlessly trying to grind Out a way to the open world, Waiting for the path to be unfurled, Gazing down the corner of my eye, Trying to figure out hereby, The distance between the two creations, The deviation between the two sensations The tears behind the smiling face, The loss accepted with grace, The hidden feelings deep within, To cover up moments of chagrin The instant when we lay still, And life begins to move downhill, The emptiness fills up the room, The strong silence before doom, And there I sit gazing down below, Waiting for everything to blow, Towards the creation of a whole new domain, Offering the chance to be born again

Always confused how to start about, Caught between the lines of doubt, Losing the time in my hand, The clock markings taking over the hour glass sand The non-stop ticking of the clock, Key of doubts without its lock, The search for the droplet within the sea, The purity in it beyond what I see The final destination seems so far, The practical emotions closed in a jar, Each warning on the way neglected, Along the final barrier it's reflected Filled with emotions & flowing guilt, Weeping across the bridge I built, The broken strings by which it hung, The lesson learnt while I'm still young

Lying under the cloudy sky, With eyes waiting to cry, With time ahead lurking in my mind, The distance will have the relationship bind, The smile on face with memories flashing, All of it comes down crashing, As the reality starts setting in, The physical absence' just the beginning, The vows taken along the way, All promises still left to say, The time will pass staring calender dates, Waiting alone the way one hates But just the way clouds cover the moon, Just the way they clear soon, Im sure the period would pass on fast, This loneliness wont long last So till death do us part, Stops the beating of Our hearts, The love will continue to mature, Together we'll always feel secure

After the tour of two souls together, I sat down & thoughts began to gather, About the journey we went through, The poetic valley enjoyed with you Thoughts undecided,spontaneous movement along the path, Along the way, the weather showcasing its wrath, The rough roads, bursting clouds, spiky path full of fire, Crossing together hand in hand, Couple filled with desire Never thought of separate ways, To clear together every maze, Yet betrayal finds a way to creep in, All the trust one had, broken The desire falls a level down, The king loses his precious crown, The set back caused by the event, The road diverging at every bent Hoping for them to meet ahead, The junction where both the roads have lead, To grow back desire of walking together, And rewriting the story of the Two Souls Together!

After a long battle fought within, He's standing beyond the evil sin, Of the dark passenger travelling along, This journey's been gruesome & long The lacking emotions of the man, The missing affection from the peers, He tries to feel as hard as he can, Yet lacks the dampness of the tears Moving along the colourless path, Living the life of greys & blacks, The purity of white lost under his wrath, The infinite pile of sins he stacks Yet comes a day along his way, When another soul touches the stone, The stone he had trapped within his chest, It's the touch which had his heart shone The strength it gave to fight within, The balance to cross that line thin, And leave behind the heartless mind, The soul set free with love to find

Sitting alone with my abandoned heart, Thinking about from where to start, Was it the words or the touch, Which made me fall for her so much, Where is the love that was once there, I thought you wanted to play fair, When did our ways diverge apart, Why could we not learn the art, Time slipping away through the hour glass, The memories shared, don't seem to surpass, Where's the future which we had foreseen, Why couldn't we just wipe the slate clean Gathering the pieces of the shattered soul, My life's turned darker than kohl, The agony of your total absence, The numbness wiping all my sense, Why does it have to be so hard, Why have I been completely barred, Far way from your burning life, All I wanted was a loving wife Why can't any one of us come clean, Is it necessary to make it so obscene, My heart never wanted to walk away, I'm still ready with those eight letters to say, Neither I liked the sep

I see your name flashing on my phone, Even though I know it's just imagination, I see your eyes, with pain they moan, I'm losing all my concentration I hear your voice ringing in my ears, Even though I know it's just imagination, I miss your touch, its loss I fear, I'm losing all the sensation I see you lying in front of me, Even though I know it's just imagination, With time it grows, the pain I foresee, I'm all full of frustration I feel your breath down my neck, Even though I know it's just imagination, I'm all that's wrong, a total wreck, I have no justification I see your eyes stare at me wide, Even though I know it's just imagination, I need you now, I cannot hide Anymore, My state of hallucination!

The lights flashing colour, The trees growing over, The shadows under the shed, The stars above they hover All exhibiting the moment of truth, The mix of patience & ruth, Sprinkling around the coloured sheath, Blanking over the lifefull of a party The lighting around one's life, The way it gets dim or bright, Just the way for success we strive, The ups & downs clutch us tight The stripped tone of black & white, The striking balance on the lines, The greener grass of other side, Twitching around with our lives Brought near to the closing thought, After all the battles' been fought, All the differences between patience & ruth, Brings us to the moment of truth

He opened his eyes, To the world above, Stared at its lies, And its imagery of love A tear trickling down his cheek, At all that the sky promises, The answers to which he seeks, It's this knowledge that he misses, He doesn't speak of any misery, He doesn't seek for any favour, His eyes signal the need for mercy, From the god above to forgive his misbehaviour He seeks solace under the crying clouds, The one to understand all his faults, His actions form this misty shroud, And keeps all hidden within the vaults He stares above at the star lit sky, And questions all thats wrong, He stares above & only asks 'why?' Why questions remain unanswered for so long He closes his eyes, To the world above, Turns blind at its lies, And its imagery of love

Trying to see life with a new angle, Letting go off the past memories, To move ahead with renewed force, And make use of all the remedies But he looks back through the tunnel of time, Only to realise the force behind, Is too strong to cross over, And any remedy is impossible to find He moves ahead through fast paced lane, Only to find no one on his side, He searched around for a fellow soul, To partner him along the ride The path gets longer & bends along, Grows its branches all across, Their ways get divided, the soul departs, Strikes him hard with the loss It breaks him down till the point, All emotions find it tough to find, The way to exit the broken soul, To help him soothe his lonely mind He ends up looking back through time, Realises he cant live the past, And finds new paths to walk along, And begins the cycle again at last

The life full of monotonous emotions, The dreams full of magic & potions, The day full of bright sun light, The night of endless stars at height The times of rapid seedling growth, The impressions of life & death both, The nurturing of the young ones, The love within one's heart runs The cycle of falling & rising, The weight of responsibilities rising, The time spent to clear all doubts, And search around for success' whereabouts All the activities must end in vain, If you can't maintain to show you're sane, To the world full of mindless goons, Lead by people born with silver spoons So one acts sane, if act is what its called, Connects all his emotions still stalled, And the man embarks on his journey sans wrath, And puts together the sane man's path

As we sit down & gaze around, With so many pictures to be found, Of pre mature acts & childish ways, Back to the time of simon says That glimpse of smile on our face, That glimpse of fear lost in a maze, Those embarrassing moments of yours & mine, Those times of following a single line Those bursting out laughters in a room, Those wishes to fly over on a broom, The magic tricks & castle ways, The drawings of rainbow & sun rays We laugh at what we used to be, The way the world we used to see, We laugh it out in a crowd, Act mature and feel so proud But deep inside each one of us, Is the innocent soul ready to buzz, Our heart takes care of the child within, But keeps it trapped within the innocent sin

As I sit down & gather my thoughts around, There are a lot of ignored facts to be found, About the past, the paths I took, And all the hands till now I've shook, You wonder about the road not taken, Are you better off? Or just mistaken? The choice between left & right, The choice between brain & might, Leaves you with your mind to fight Through the storm, the sun & rain, Through the emotions, the fun & pain, You wonder about the road not taken, If the other side, offered a better bacon Through the woods, the trees & creatures, Through the institutions, the students & teachers, You wonder about the road not taken, If all the risks were worth being taken You end up thinking its not worth the thought, Theres nothing that your mind has caught, But still you wonder about the road not taken, And convince yourself that you were never mistaken

Entering into the new world of age, Where everything seems to settle beyond rage, Into the new horizons beyond dusk & dawn, Into the greenery beyond every lawn The journey through the teenage years, The journey beyond childhood fears, The point at which you're called a man, And the society removes quite a few bans The grown up feeling from within, Covered with thoughts ever so thin, There isn't much difference in your thinking, It's just the perception in your mind sinking To put it simply you've become an adult, Having a few extra rights is the result, But the journey through life has just started to set, There's a whole new world to explore yet

Towards the start of a journey new, A gust of strong wind blew, Drove him forward with a purpose, And he moved along without any fuss Along the way he countered rough surface, Yet he never gave up the chase, To tag along to the finish line, To experience the feeling of being on cloud nine The journey grew longer & longer, Adding to the level of success' hunger, The more it turned into new ways, The more it turned into a maze The end seeming to be farther than nearer, The presence of confusions became clearer, Yet he never went off the track, He never let his focus crack And as the reward neared his eyesight, He felt the the presence of all his might, Which helped him along as the journey grew, And brought the finish into his view

I don't even feel like writing, Yet with my mind I'm fighting, Dancing to the beats in my ears, Not acknowledging any present fears Not realising what to do, All I'm waiting for is a sign from you, I'm running out of time, Can't even explain it in my rhyme, Galvanising around the tree of thoughts, Within the circle of doubts I'm caught, Peeking around with my eyes closed, The validity of all I've done opposed Caught within the boundary of duty, Growing in me like roots of a tree, The thoughts which would prove me crazy, Are the ones which always seem so hazy

If only I knew the solution, If only you understood my situation, If only I could bring back the smile, I'd be ready to walk a thousand mile It's not always as you plan it to be, It's not always the way you see, It's not always the gush of wind, That uphelds the roots of trees pinned Why is it not under our control, Why is it not within our soul, Why is it not something defined, It's too wild to be described in kind All allegations, pointing & fixation, All thoughts, rolled into a summation, All words coming out of the oral cavity, Will not match up to the situation's gravity So, In the end theres nothing left So, In the end the thoughts arent deft, So, In the end comes the Goodbye, And leaves us with the question Why?

Feeling out of inspiration, Stuck in the state of desperation, Feeling alienated in the new environment, All the emotions causing a huge dent Not able to express it well, In my mind it's ringing a huge bell, Am I losing the touch of simplicity, Am I wasting time being witty Why am I going down the graph, Why is my mind feeling half, A moment of inspiration is desperately needed, A new thought has to be seeded I'm still waiting for the need to fulfill, Waiting for the thoughts to spill, Till then I'd close my eyes & travel along, In my dreams where nothing is wrong

Sitting through the darkness, Getting ready with the harness, To jump into the pool of thought, To not let anything in my mind rot Not sure if I'd wanna come back, Come back into this thoughtless sack, Not sure if I'd want the harness to break, And let me stay in the world where I ain't a freak Whenever you speak on your own, You let free those past thoughts sown, It may not gain you with much support, But then life does not ask you of any report You may be judged mad, Insane by majority, But being called sane is not the priority, To bring forward your true opinions on everything, Maybe thats what shaped my minds wings I know I make no sense at all, And thats why I got ready for the fall, Into that useless pool of thoughts, Just to save my mind from the drought

Living within the confines of my room,  Eager to experience the moments of doom,  Mixing around the thoughts in my mind,  Trying to weigh them all in kind  The monotonous life lead by me,  With no new scenery to see, With no new thoughts to print on paper,  With most them converted to vapour  The thought bowl goes empty with time,  Gets harder & harder to create rhymes,  Everything seems to reach a halt,  Even salt beds have a limit of salt  And yet I sit here waiting for doom,  Living within the confines of my room

No idea where to use my mind, No way to keep the thoughts bind, No path to follow by my heart, No sense in keeping it all apart The walk down the aisle, The drive by the mile, The kiss in the sky, The mind wonders why? Why is everything so complicated, Why my mind's boundary is gated, Why are there the ego clashes, Why all the thoughts end up in crashes Where is the fluidity in the rhyme, Where is the guilt in the crime, Where is the love in the heart, Where is the energy in the start, All the questions, confusion & chaos, Bring together nothing but a string of thoughts, The answers to all of this unknown, These thoughts in my mind, like seeds have been sown

Is this what life is all about? Ups & downs all throughout, A smile followed by a frown, In those tears, the face drown, The moments of anger & distrust, Causing your emotions to form rust, The heart stops beating for once, Drowns under your arrogance, The moments of darkness in your mind, The absence of one & all kind, The invisible tears of the clown, Who makes fun to clear all frowns, The next day morning bright & shine, Ready to shape new thoughts of mine, Ready to bring new ups & downs, Ready to start all new rounds, The rounds of love & hate within, The conception of one's sin, The mutual flash of raising doubt, Is this what life is all about?

26th Oct completely changed my life, No more in search of that suicidal knife, My days have lit up brighter than ever, Something I thought would happen never She became my sun in the day, Made me warmer than I can say, She is my blanket in the night, She loves me more, maybe she's right, I'm her Mickey & She's my Minnie Mouse,  Can't wait for her to lit up my house,  I love my Ipshi So Much,  There's nothing which can be compared as such,  The Sexy bellydancer & the Hot footballer,  The Best couple in the world without any spoiler,  She will always be my stoopid mouse,  I'll give her the cheese ring & make her my spouse  We'll always keep fighting about loving more,  Till the time our throats go all soar, The only way to have us cured,  Is to breath each others breathe to which we're lured  Our Love for each other will always stand tall,  We live for each other & will together fall!

My life is incomplete without you, Your smile is what helps me go through, Ipshitaa I've etched your name in my heart, Staying without you, it's way beyond being hard, Your eyes make me forget all pain, How my heart melts is not what I can explain, That laugh could make me do anything, For me girl, you're everything, So here I am letting my feelings known, I loved you, I love you still, & No matter what happens, I always will I Love You more than these words can explain.. :* Ps. I wrote this on 9th November 2010 but I wanted to post it up today. Happy Four Months Ipshitaa! I've enjoyed each and every moment of the 123 days we've spent together! :*